She spends her days looking out the window, her body a cloud her mind waves away. The sun shines on, oblivious, paints the grass in waves, the trees in pale watercolor strips that fade from brown to green. Gone are the ridges and knots, the broken branches, the individual veins. She strains to remember the last time she climbed a tree, tries to recall the bite of bark on her palms, the nip and tuck on thighs. She wants to swim in memory, but her mind sits like a pond in the distance, without shimmer or reflection, a flat unspent quarter of silver light. At night she dreams of falling. Not about the point of impact or the moment after. Just what came before: the rope turning venomous, striking flesh from each finger. The wind forcing her eyelids closed, steely rock-face peeling them back, leaving a hole through which the rest of her body did not have enough time to escape. She dreams of snowy ibises settling to the ground, their gentle descent marked by eerie grace. She dreams of lovers she has yet to know, of bottomless kisses she can’t run from, of arms reaching to catch her.